The problem, is however, that while everyone wants insight into others, few people are as willing to look so intently at themselves.
I have started writing a book on my relationship with Dana (check out her blog)–a relationship that has a timely message for this present generation to hear. I debated whether or not I wanted to publish on this blog as I go. I’ve decided to do so. I want to do it this way because I honestly don’t know what I’d do with a whole book a year from now. Also, I just anticipate a growing anxiety about this particular story gathering no merit or worth housed on my hard drive. I just kept getting this haunting feeling of if tree falls in a forest….yada yada yada…know what I mean? In a time such as this…. Do it. Do it now!
Okay. Keep an eye out for Chapter 1 in about a month.
P.S. I obviously have no title for this book. It’ll reveal itself.
Gap Footage: From 10 April 2012 before I left American for Afghanistan.
Gap Footage is semi-edited video footage from a previous time that I never published online.
I am openly sharing in this video about how I started out as a soldier with no focus, and how I am refining that focus now. This ended up spilling over into another video for later, due to the length of time I spent explaining my thinking back in 2010 when I enlisted.
An Important Note:
Taking the time to evaluate my past is very important to me, which is why I started this personal autobiographical documentary style project for myself. This is what I do. Observe, analyze, evaluate and try again. It’s in my personality to do (INTP; Enneagram 5w4). Examining my successes over the last four years as a soldier, as well as owning my failures, rethinking to eliminate myths and lies, and releasing my faults is what I am presently doing. There is a lot that can be said negatively of my absence from my vlogging, but I am so happy to have returned to doing this that I already feel a deep satisfaction. Soldier or not a soldier, expressiveness is what I do and I won’t stop. So, should what I say as a soldier, both about my person and my army career helps you, then I am very happy about that. If not, I am deeply sorry that what I have to offer in the way of raw open monologue is not what you’re seeking. But I cannot do away with this approach.